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So I finally had the dream Iapos;ve been needing to have.

I dreamt about Paddy last night. We were at Pennsic together and during the dream, I remembered that she was dead. Iapos;ve had a few dreams where she was around and I remembered that she was dead before, but this time I was actually able to ask her about it.

She said that yes, she was dead and this was just a dream. I asked if that meant she wasnapos;t going to be in my dreams anymore, because I really liked seeing her and I missed her a lot. She said that maybe when Iapos;d had a really bad day sometime, she could make a Pennsic dream that we could share together.

And I woke up not sure whether to be smiling or crying. That was what I needed, I guess, for my subconscious mind to finally give up and let me believe sheapos;s really dead, but itapos;s so final and I miss her.

Still not sure whether to cry or not.

Iapos;d forgotten how much one of those dreams can hurt.

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